Wow, I don't knw how to start but I need to start somewhere. This story would be long but please find time to read them and let me know your candid advice. Am so confused tat I don't knw where to start narrating my story. I just need you guys opinion. I don't know what decision to take or if my instinct is right or am over reacting. I ve bein in a relationship for 1 yrs + nw and during the first 4 Month, the relationship as been based on sex, sex, sex all day long that it affected my sexual drive and I begin to feel pretty bad and sad with my gf wen it comes to sex or she she mention sex. We have fought on this issues times without number and I decided to reduced the sexual activity cos I feel like am just a intimacy gadget to her and for my own good as I don't want to have trauma wen it comes to sex in future. I love her so much as she is caring and loving as well but that 1 thing (sex) abt her I don't like and can't make us be together no matter what as I might die b4 my time. She has this closest friend of her which they both leave together b4 I meet her. The severeness of their closeness and friendship, made them vow not ever leave eachother. According to what my gf told me, the friend don't want her to be close with any guy and she she is, she would make sure they break up as she is jealous. Since she as been with me, I know she is not happy but jealous she is in love and close with him. She has said so many ill thing about me to my gf which are all lie so she can leave me. Even on my bday, she has the guts to tell my gf to leave me as we are not meant to be and tat she has had enuf of me.
She just move in to a new apartment where she share room with some girls and the girls are lesbo which I know. So 1 faithful day, I was so curious and asked her if she has heard them making love and she said no, I was so curious and naive abt lesbo and if the gf in lesbo can date a guy and have intimacy with men and she said Yes, the gf in the lesbo can date guys and still practise lesbo with her female partner and she mistaken flipped and told me she has experienced such and immediately withdrew her words and want to change the topics so I persist we talk on the experience and who the person was. I persisted and forced her and she said it was her close friend. I was so shocked. I asked with who she practiced it with? She don't want to speak also and wish to change topic again but I still persist and she said she practice it with her step sister and tat she has seen them doing it and it's been long though. So I just keep shut and let my head and eyes work together from that day on.
It happen today she msg me before leaving work for home that her Battery is low and she would msg me later. We were both broke and I know She don't have money and I asked her what she would eat for the nite and she said she don't know. I was so worried of her cos I manage to eat that evening so I want to share with her the little money I have so she can eat n survive. I tried calling and the phone was off. So I decided to drive down to her place to give her the money as I can't get thru her on the phone. On getting there, I knocked the door for several minute but no reply. I went down stair and sat at her back yard and I can saw her light and TV on in her room and the the window cotton opened. I waited till her room mate (the lesbos) came around and went back again to knock the door (while I was at the back yard sitting, I noticed the lesbo room was dark and window lock and saw the light on 1 hour after which I know they are around). The roommate opened the door for me, asked her if my gf was in and she said "YES". She Went to knock on her room and called out her name, she opened and I heard her told my gf that your bf is at the door. It took her some minute for her to come open the door for me. Wen she came to the door, I can sense her heart pounding. She asked why I came to her house (place I owez visit, can you imagine?) I knw something was amiss. I asked her whats wrong with her hand phone and she said her battery went off and she just came in from work (I knew she was lying). So I went in and sat on the cushion, there she is looking at me with her heart pounding and asked me straight up "Lets go down stair" which is weird. I just came in and you asked us to go down stair. Thats not being hospitable. Actually, I came to share some money with her as we are damn broke, just want to give her money so she can feed for the nite and tomorrow n go back home. So I said "I just came and u want me to go downstair? Hold on". Then she said she want to go to her room to charge her hand phone (while she as been in for abt an hour and she never charged her phone). As she went in, I followed her into the room. She sat on her bed arranging her cloth. Immediately I look around the hse and saw some strange cloth which was not her's. She asked why I came to visit and I said, I just came to share the little money I have since you don't have anything to eat for tonite and there she goes say, I shouldn't ve bothered coming to give her money while the same gf I know would worship me for caring for her with little things like this. She started saying rubbish of things tat isn't worth saying at that point in time. Stuffs like " I know am disturbing you", "I feel bad about myself and U shouldn't ve come", and she said she never ate last nite and what is the wrong with what I did for coming to share the little I have? She started blaming me for coming to come share with her with the little I have that it doesn't warrant it. I was like "So u can't even appreciate I cared for you"?. I said OK I want to go home now as my action is making you to cry and not being appreciable and blaming me for caring but before I leave, I wish to use the toilet and the it was beside her room and she was like, some1 is in there and I asked who? She said I don't know, but some1 is in there. I asked her to check for me if the person is her fellow roommate and still there as I have to ease myself, she said she don't know that she never talked to them wen she came back from work today. Then I asked who own those cloth cos I know it is not urs and she said it is her "close friend" and I said where is she and she said she is in the toilet. I saw her jean on the bed, her cloth hanged on the hanger but her bra was not there and I said her what is she doing in the toilet? She said she is taking her shower. While we were taking, she just can't stop crying. Then she went to the toilet and asked the friend to come out from the toilet and I went to see the friend and she wasn't like someone that just toke shower and the all time I was talking to my gf, I never even hear a drop of water cos he room is so close to the toilet. There she was with her bra which I can see her bosoms and towel covering herself. I just keep shut and went in to tell my gf that I want to go and she should just open the door for me, then she was crying and hugging me that she appreciate my love and caring and bla bla bla. I said please open the door I want to go. She open the door and walked me down stair to my car. I just drove and zoom off as I don't want to cause any scene there or be to forward as I need to sit and think wat was happening in there.
Wen I got home she msg me that she is sorry and she loves me. I called her and told her wen I was at her hse and that I was sitting at her back yard and I saw her light, TV and fan all on. Watching for an hour and came to her hse again wen the room mate cam back only for her to take time to open the door, and crying for nothing not until I saw her friend semi unclothed and she claim she was having shower and I never heard sound of water and she doesn't look like some1 that had showered, tat she should tell me what was happening. She started saying so You r accusing me or us of having sex and all, then I said what her u saying? She said, Yes thats what you are thinking if not what do you mean. I said I never opened my mouth to accuse you why say stuff like this? and she said Yes tat is what is in my mind. I just hang up the call. Could it be thats what they were doing?? Please guys I need your advice.