My two lovers have logged off the internet. One is a married man, he wanted to go and have sex with his wife. The other one is engaged to be married in a few months. He was mad at me cos i made reference to his fiancee that he didn't like. I am left to my bed and computer.
This is the story of my life. In the past couple of years I seem to have become addicted to painful relationships that leave me empty. I always had good self esteem. I never gave married men a second thought. But I am now caught in a web which instead of taking a bold stand against, I have allowed myself to continue to wallow in. How did I get here? The particulars of my case are not necessary. I just want to detox because I've had enough. I have slept with the married man and I want to stop. The engaged guy seems to be chasing me but he has made it clear to me that he absolutely adores his fiancee and that's what I questioned that left him livid and walked out on me online. I need to break free from this. Anybody who can talk some sense to me please help me here. I'm usually a very confident woman but my self confidence is gradually disappearing. I am no longer focussed on my work like before, i am doubting my faith and even questioning God. Everything I believed and stood for is becoming blurred. I have taken out time to get reinvigorated even in my faith, but I find myself falling back into the same pattern with these two men. I am just fed up.